Another Wednesday the 23rd day of another month

There have been twelve Wednesday the twenty-thirds since I began counting. The first was Wednesday, 23 March 2011, the day on which I was forced to begin retooling the new reality.  Since I’m counting, I might as well say that it is also the 78th month of the new reality that keeps changing shape.   Seventy-eight months of silence from Joshua, our son, for he died on Tuesday, 22 March 2011 between 6:00 pm and 6:30 pm according to the coroner’s report.

So what happened to Joshua?

If you ask me, Joshua died for no good reason but that important detail you will not find in the coroner’s report.  Joshua Henry Daniel Williams had lived fully and well for 18 years 4 months and 9 days; for 220 months; for 957 weeks & 5 days and for 6,704 days.   The numbers somehow make it seem real.   There is substance and definition to numbers; I can make sense of numbers so I’ll cling to them for as long as I can.